Inspirational Post, Number 1

I had one of my fits last night, and it is inevitable, that for whatever reason, I will have one from time to time. I release the pressure by just going mad in my house where it is safe, and remembering not to hurt myself or damage anything that might cause me a great deal of trouble. However, as is common when I have a fit, I made a breakthrough this morning after falling asleep for a while. I do get good rest when I do sleep, but I don't sleep very much. That is one reason I often call my fits, "molting."

This is something that occurred to me, and it dovetails but also extends something I have already talked about. What I've said before is along the lines, "Don't worry too much about what you are born with. All of us our born with gifts and curses, and some are born more cursed or less gifted than others. Just work at what you want, and you don't even have to work until you are miserable, and you will succeed at what you are working on."

So it occurs to me last night, sometime around the end of the fit, that to me, there is a mystico-religious extension to this idea, which might go like this, "If you are simply willing to work, and don't quit working for any reason, then you will achieve anything you ever imagined achieving, and even more than you could ever have imagined achieving." Imagine, as I have, perhaps being a God, understanding all or any knowledge, obtaining eternal youth and immortality, healing a broken world, passion, eternal growth, destiny, and true freedom. I believe on some level that what ought to be impossible for us, isn't impossible for us, if we are simply willing to work, and if we are simply willing to never quit.

So for example, I imagine myself as a God, maybe, but I can't smoke less than 2 and a half packs a day in a bad month. That isn't exactly, "God," territory, but I believe, strange or not, that if I continue to work, "God territory," could be entered. Like I said, in a different way, "If you never quit working, you can never fail to succeed, no matter how long that success takes to become real."

That sums up what I'm trying to tell people. Work is a value in itself, not just a means to an end. Think about it, most people who are of some age have had a job or done work, where the process of getting the work done was enjoyable instead of a drudgery. Good work requires some tedium, but the work itself, just doing the work and not worrying about the ends achieved too much, (kind of like Big Al Crow's "no lust for results") can be just as valuable if not more valuable than the product achieved by the work.

People who find work only a drudgery are poor excuses for human beings. For one, they are usually lazy, because no one can work in a state of constant drudgery, and for two, they find no value in their own efforts and consequently, no value in themselves. That is a very miserable place for someone to be, and I've seen many people in my life that never grow out of that basic mindset, that work is drudgery, and that products are everything.

There was this man in Russia around the time of the Bolshevik Revolution named P.D. Ouspenskii, and he had met a very sly but very remarkable man named G.I. Gurdjieff, who had really sparked Ouspenskii's mind into new territory. Ouspenskii was a pseudo-scientist, not even up to par by the standards of science of that time period, but there was something very telling about him that was recorded by his friends. Ouspenskii died fairly young, just under 60, and as he gave his death-rattle, his last words were, "More effort!"

I would like to talk about some of that esoteric thought more, but I'm considering splitting it off to another blog and then cross-linking the two blogs. Blogspot is kind enough to allow multiple blogs for free accounts, and we'll see what comes of that thought sometime here in the future. For now, just work, and don't quit, no matter what happens, and your life is going to head somewhere, even if the paths you walk are a bit crooked.